Sparks fly from the tip of a wand
I listen with eager ears to hear
An owl screech, its message is clear.
I tremble to feel
A dark caress
I fail to realize
This fantasy is not reality.
I have lived much of my life
Wrapped in the silky embrace of
A book of enchantments...
happily losing myself within its pages.
My reality is not my desire
My desire is with his clever words
His hair, his eyes, his soul...
I drink deeply from the cup
Of magic and wait for his call.
I am not a patient person. I do not like to wait. Its a downfall of mine. (one of many, I confess. Love of cheesecake, evil movie/TV men, thrift stores and jumbles and jumbles of cats, ect...) so I am having a hard time waiting for things in my life to happen.
I am starting a thrift store with my sister. Its something we are both passionate about and it will help us financially, as well as the cash strapped schools in our county. BUT, this is most likely 6 months away. Until then I toil away at a dead end job, where I am just not happy. Or at least I am not happy now that I know... or hope that life has something better in store for me.
I grew up poor, lived most of my life poor but lack the drive to get myself out of it. Hey, I think I have hit on another downfall. My lazy-un goal driven-coast along way of living my life. This opportunity is perfect for me, it will keep my interest and allow me to move closer to my family, my boys will have a better life (I hope) than I ever dreamt I could give them. Life is looking promising for the first time in a very long time.
Waiting... waiting... why does time only move fast when you are watching people be born, grow... or slowly pass away into eternity?
I have decided to work again on writing poetry. Not because I am good at it, or have some original thoughts. I need an outlet for my emotions, for things that I feel and want to say but do not have the guts to have it all laid out for the people who know me to see. Forgive me for the amateur attempts, just realize it is me trying to put the things I have trouble saying in to words.